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Don't let others take away your sunshine. You can always be looking for the best... in ANYTHING! :)


Mine is forever <3

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

The. man. of. my. dreams.

Have I found him? Nope, but when i do he will be perfect.. to ME! I want him to be my best friend, my shoulder to cry on, my first person i think of when something good happens to me. My #1 to call for anything, my handy man, my protector, the father to my children, the one that keeps me going even on my worst days. The one that knows something is wrong when i have the biggest smile on my face, the one that stands up for me when everyone else isn’t. The one i tell all my secrets to, the one that i call my baby, the one that i can just laugh with.. about anything! I just want him to be the man of my dreams. We all have someone different in mind, but i’ll know when i find him. His touch will be all i want, his smile will make me smile, his laugh will make me laugh and his love for what he wants will be mine too. i want him to love my dreams, my goals and my passion. I want to be able to work together and finish together and never give up on what we set out to do. Always be strong for each other cause i know trials will come our way that will be tough if we don’t do it with out each other. He will be my other half, and i can’t wait to find him.

Thursday, June 2, 2011



I haven't been able to catch you up on everything in my life.. Why you ask? Well I can sum that up in one word. DENVER. One word, too many meanings.

I dont like bugs, but now i do. I sell them. Actually, things to kill them. Pest Control. I breathe, eat, sleep, poop, talk, want, need pest control. That's all my mind knows now. Bad? Not really. Boring? Very. Interesting? More than you'll ever now. Frustrating and exhausting would be my main words that i'd used to describe this though..

Definition. too many people think this is easy. I'd love to pay for anyone to come up here and do what i'm doing. You wake up, go to the gym, go to correlation, go knock doors till 4, have a break till 5, then knock till 9 at night, sometimes even later. Think you do something different? nope, like i said it's been my life for the last month and i want my old life back. Jk, but really. I do.. I love that i've been given this opportunity to come out here and experience this (haven't thought of the right word to use). Is it a blessing, a trial, something to teach me patience, faith, happiness? Still trying to figure that out. There is one thing i know that is a big blessing for me right now and it'd be my girl SJ. aka Sidney Reed.

Ready, me too. Here is the back round of this lovely friendship and this "dumb" idea of thinking Denver would be heaven and easy money. i like money, sometimes a lil too much. so I thought of this idea right. How about we sell in AZ. no, it's hotter than lava there and we said no. Then i thought hmmm, anyways we are at church that next sunday just doing our thing and loving every min of the lessons given. These boys walk in, and i'm like oh i know them cause sidney mentioned how she thought one of the boys was cute. So we ditch R.S for easter candy. ( dont pretend you wouldn't do the same) so we get to talking and we are definitely attrached to these boys and they start to tell us that they are going to be leaving for Denver to go sell some Pest Control. They start to ask us to come with them and sell. We just laugh and laugh.. 3 days later we start packing, quitting our jobs and telling everyone see ya later till the end of August. We are now up here with these boys. Ya, nope i didn't get my man but sidney girl face did and it's adorable :) sometimes.... jk haha

It's been one tough tough tough thing to be going thru. We have had our ups and downs, happy times, sad times, crying times, rough times, best time, bonding times. It's just a lot of time and we need to take this "time" to just realize more than what we are.. Can't wait to be rolling in silly money and a new car! BOOM. ROASTED.

Here is some pickies of our adventures so far.
1. Us after the club
2. Me and Aaron
3. Me and my sid
4. bff's
5. hanging in the car
6. me with chase
7. Sid on a good day

Well that's all for now, but just wait. It'll get better. I'm SO lucky to be able to do this right now. Denver is tough but it's teaching me new things and i'm obviously out here for a reason :)

Friday, April 8, 2011


I haven't blogged in a long time i feel like.. I've missed it, a lot. I was catching up on some other blogs and i've come to find out that my favorite thing about reading other blogs is i find answers, or other ways to answer problems that i'm having. I read about people struggling with cancer (always brings tears to my eyes) about a family member passing away, about trials coming there way when they think they don't deserve it. But in the end of it i never hear them "complain" it's always a we have a purpose here and we need to remember. No matter how short or long it is! I'm so blessed in SO many aspects. I don't know why it took so long for me to realize it, but i've come to realize it and i love it. It's the little things in life that matter most! I've learned new things about me, and honestly new things about other people that i would have never thought. I've also learned that "Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference." it's so true, i find myself waking up in the morning not wanting to go to the gym, or not wanting to go to work, or not wanting to do something that could better someones day.. But when i get that attitude of hey, this is something for you, but also for someone else. Do it and be happy. I get a kick in the pants and i'm off. I've never thought about it this way, but when we plan on doing something or going somewhere and something happens that allows us to not make that plan or event, it's for a reason. With that, i feel it's the same with meeting friends. I can tell you i'm content now with just sitting around, hanging out and watching youtube videos, or going to the gym, sitting around talking, just being able to be chill. I don't need to be always going out staying out till way late. I've made a couple of the best friends a girl could ask for. Sidney and Kim are my girls, i love them to pieces! :)

Let's be honest, i've been having those ugly days where you just feel like nothing looks good on your, your hair isn't done right, your make up looks messy and you just look FAT. i've been feeling that more than ever lately and i don't know why. it's the worst feeling in the world.. But as stupid as it may sound, i think that's why Sid's been put in my life, to help me be healthy (she's a gym nut, and i love it) she can motivate you to work hard, and push hard. She's been my lil helper on this little trial i've been going thru. She always knows what to do to make me feel better. I had a break down just before our double date with some boys we knew, i came home and just cried cause i felt like no matter what you could do to me, i'd still look ugly. my amazing mom reassured me that i'm gorgeous, and that she's sorry she doesn't tell me enough. Brought even more tears to my eyes as i walked upstairs to the empty closest she helped me clean out.I got ready and went to the date, still feeling really bummed about the way i looked, i went to sids house and they open the door and both say "freaking me" haha (sids ringtone) they could tell something was wrong so they asked, and i was a little short but with in the night i didn't even remember i was feeling ugly. Even with out words (which is sometimes the best way to say things) they made me feel good. It's been a while since i've had a friend do that for me.

I've been SO SO SO blessed, i just wish i could count all my blessings, and be able to share them. I'm so blessed to have a beautiful family, with parents so strong in the gospel, wonderful friends that i can turn to for anything. A job, that gives me money and pays for the bills. (even thought it might not be my favorite, it's a job. Everyone is suffering) a house, a car, clothes, food, water. etc. we just need to remember that we are so blessed, even though it might not seem like it. There is always something to be thankful for.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Luv Lfye

So you know when you just sit in a car, and talk for a long time.. About anything and everything? Ya, those are my favorites. Or you have those days where you are just in the car, sitting there listening to music you are so happy you don't even need to turn down the music to "think" about it, it just glows through out your whole body. The feeling of happiness is one that can't be explained. All I know is i'm feeling that, so much right now. I don't know what it is, maybe the fact that my family rocks, i've got some of the best friends anyone could ask for, i've got a job, i'm happy, a roof over my head, i'm able to go to school. I can wake up in the morning and say, oh heck sure does feel good to be me. We all have those days that they can just literally suck, nothing about it is good, no matter how hard you try. Sometimes that's when the people you love most come into the picture. Saying something small that fits into a big part of your heart can be a hard thing to do sometimes, but when it happens isn't it the best feeling? Or the friends that you might not be so close with anymore, but no matter how long it's been, or how much your heart hurts whenever they say "i love you" you'll always say it back, no matter what. THOSE are the people you need in your life. The ones that prove that they need YOU in THEIRS. Friendship is such a two way thing.. i don't know how you can have a one sided friendship. In the end, if you did have the one sided friendship, it's nothing but tears and hurt. How do I know? Trust me, lots of chocolate, tears and sadness have come my way losing some of the best things in life to me, or maybe in a way be de-moted but some. It's nothing to point fingers too, cause i know it's happened to all us of. Did I tell you? I lOVE having the butterfly feeling in my stomach, just the feeling of "hey, life is wonderful and i'm glad it's mine" no one can take that sort of thing away from you, and that's something that's priceless to me. I guess i just have a lot to be thankful for, and i need to always remember that when i'm having a tough time, there is always someone out there a million times worse off than I am. BE HAPPY! :]

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Hope you stay forever, cause my heart really likes you.

Life is wonderful, that's what i would start my blog out with wouldn't I? I'd actually start by saying life sucks sometimes but it's something we all have to get use too. I've learned so much in the past couple weeks that it blows my mind the things people go through and we don't even know it. All i know in the end of this day is i have the MOST AMAZING FRIENDS EVER. Seriously, in my life for a reason and i hope they stay forever cause my heart kind of likes them a lot. Seriously, im in love... with people. Everything about someone is something to another person. Ever thought of that? The people that we look at weird in the street and think, what the.. IThere is someone that is in love with them, that thinks they are the most amazing person in the world. Wonder what it'd be like if that's how WE thought of EVERYONE. hmmm, just thought about that.

So this is Paige. She's taught me so much in the time that we've been hanging out together. Im in love with the way she lives her life. she is so real that it's kinda sad.. Well, not sad. But you get what i mean. It's life and she knows what it's about. She knows her life sucks in some ways, but she takes it the best way she can and makes it the best. She isn't over positive about things and she's sad or upset or happy when you are. It's refreshing to have her around all the time. I can't wait to see what else will come our way and to see how each one of us grows up and how we grow up :) it's always nice to have someone to go to for things when it's that one person that you need to hear from. It's refreshing for sure!

These girls are amazing. Each and everyone of them has taught me something i will take with me forever. I can't tell anyone enough how lucky i am to have friends like these girls. I LOVE them!

Megan and Paigey are my home girls :) i love them and everything about them. They don't get mad when i mess up, or i treat them rudely. They always understand and it's always so refreshing! Thanks baby girls!

You remember this girl? yup, she's in almost every one of my blog post. Just like she's almost always in my life. She wont leave... That sounds rude, but guess what i don't mean it in that way. Let's be honest, we have drifted a lot lately and things have changed, and we've moved on from different things in our lives. But let's face it, we are going to be stuck with each other for the rest of our lives, and there is nothing we can do.. really, let's just embrace all of it and take it as it comes. You know what i mean, and i mean it in the best way possible. duh!

This is Tyler and Me. We have been through TOO much together but i love every part of it. Even though when it comes to i feel like he's being the girl cause he talks so much. It's my fav. I go to him for anything cause he never says no. He'll always be my best guy friend :) Can't wait till he gets rich and buys me whatever i want.. (that's what he said, not me)


Wednesday, September 29, 2010

The way I am! :]

I love the song "Take me the way I am" By Ingrid Michaelson! and the song "Battle Cry" by Shontelle. It's just so, tender.. But seriously, it could be used to describe a friend, family, boyfriend, girlfriend, anything could fit into the subject of these 2 songs. I think!

This is Me and Paige. you should be jealous that she's in my life. I love her! She's been such a blessing in my life lately. She knows whats up, and is just so chill. She's one of those "one in a million" friends that everyone wishes that they had, guess what? I DO :]

These are my brothers! I love them so so so much :] I love my family, so glad and blessed to be a part of it.

Taking people the way they are is so important, and not judging the outer cover of there real inside story. I've had some of the best examples of people that have taught me not to judge the people first, and get to know them first. It's so incredible what you could learn when you actually get to know the person with out not liking them cause of what they wear, how they act, what they look like, what religion they are, who they hang out with. Don't take other peoples judgements cause we all look for different things in people.

I MISS ANG AND TAY! I hate when places like School take my girls away from me. I can't wait till they come to visit! Thank you girls for being so amazing and teaching me things I couldn't have anyone else teach me. LOVE YOU!

Jake is leaving us. He is going to be the best missionary out there :] "get ready Dominican" See you in two years Jakers!

True friendship is so important to me, and i hope it is to everyone else. The friends you have are what makes you go through those tough days, the ones you can call when something exciting happens, when you need a shoulder to cry on. Don't forget the true ones in your life, for the ones that just make you happy now. I've had some of the most amazing best friends, and they always will be even though things change and we drift. We will always find each other when we need too :] hence the song, "battle cry".

These girls SAVE me. I love them so much!
Court- You're always there for me, doing whatever i want and not complaining about it. Your such a true friend is ridic.
Megs- I don't stop laughing when you're around, you have the funniest sense of humor and it's my fav. You're always
there for anyone, and it's such a blessing to have you in my life.
Aubs- "sissy" Thank you for making my life so much easier, going through the struggles that i have been going through
and not giving up on me, it's been hard at sometimes but you've never left my side. I love it and you!

Jessica is getting married, i am SO excited for her. I can't wait :] Congrats baby girl. I love chelle and krista! Gf's forevaa!

These girls have my heart, they are some of the greatest friends a girl could ever want! I love them!

Such a tender girl! We've been through tons and things have changed, but she still has that place in my heart that wont go away. She know's it too. hahahaha she's taught me some of the greatest things, and i'm forever thankful!


Thanks for checkin' out my blog. Hope you know how amazing you are, never forget it!

Thursday, August 19, 2010

My Quotes!

So I don't know if many know this, but I love to write quotes. I don't know why, but they've always seemed to be the only thing that could express what was on my mind, and others. It's such a nice thing. Kind of like how everyone has that one song that is "their" song. We have our own quote too. I thought i'd just make a blog entry about the quotes i've written and share them with everyone. Hope you enjoy them.

"Open my book and see what im about, instead of judging my cover. I may not be ready to publish as fast as youre ready to read..." -mae barker"

"My best days are ahead of me" We all have those days that you would do anything in the world to wake up that morning and take it all back. I know i've felt that way before, especially these past couple weeks. Life doesn't give you everything you want, but you get to decide what to do with what you've been given. The Lord gives you those days, those struggles and challenges to grow stronger and be thankful for what you have. He knows you can handle what he gives you, that's why it happens to you not someone else. Love what your given, even though it might be hard. "

"With love comes hostility" We take the ones we love for granted because we know they will always forgive us, they will always understand us, they will always be there for us when we need them the most. But in the end, just make sure you let them know how much they mean to you."

"The best is yet to come. Friends are a very rare jewel. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed. They lend an ear, they share a word of praise, and they always want to open their hearts to us. Show your friends how much you care. Remember to always be there for them, even when you need them more. Cherish the time you have, and the memories you share. Being friends with someone is not an opportunity but a sweet responsibility."

"So I always thought, what is the real definition of friendship? I think we all have our own definition. Is it the person that will be there for you, no matter what? The one you call to cry on their shoulder? The one you can use and abuse and no matter what they'll still be there for you? Want to know why they do this? Cause you gave them a reason. Somewhere inside of all this craziness, you gave them the reason to want to protect you, to love you, to want to give you exactly what you want. If you've found a friend like this, you've found a winner! Don't let it go for something you think might shine brighter."

"So I've had somethings on my mind lately, but the one that has really stuck with me lately is, when your hurting, your struggling, when you think life isn't going your way. There is always almost someone else that is struggling so much more than you. Help others out, even by doing little things & your problems will seem so much smaller. "When you dig another out of their troubles, you find a place to bury your own."

"Ever wonder why people come into your life, why they leave, and sometimes where they even came from? I know I do, all the time. Something i've learned is you can't make someone stay, want, or need you. They are put into your life, or your put into theres until your ready to move on in the lesson your suppose to learn. It's hard to have them leave, but sometimes it's what's the best."

"We are made to grow, to learn, to hurt, to progress. We will fall, each and everyone of us. No doubt about that! Things will go wrong, but thats why we have those "bandaids" in our lives. They are there to help us, to heal us. They are the things & friends that get us threw those scraped up knee's and broken hearts."

"When you think your alone, life is to rough, everyone's left you, and there is nothing left to be happy about. Think again, your in the Lords hands. There is no other place i'd rather be! He protects us, give us exactly what we need and loves us unconditionally no matter what we do. "Love should be our walk, and our talk"

"I realized something today. It's time to grow up but not completely. It's time to realize how good we have it & appreciate everything. Time to change the things we don't necessarily like. Time to just love life! We can't always hold onto everything & everyone. People change, they leave, they grow, sometimes they just disappear! If their meant to be in your life, they will be. "Everything happens for a reason."

"Whatever challenges, struggles or obstacles we come across, we have them because there will be a time when we look back at everything that's happened to us and we'll say and think hey, that helped me grow, learn and be thankful in one way or another. or you'll think, hey that was the hardest thing I have ever been through. But in the end, everything works out exactly how you need it too. If you're thinking about giving up, don't because God gave you your life because he knows that you are the only one strong enough to handle it."

Those are just some of the quotes and ways to live life that i've written! :]