Blessings

I haven't blogged in a long time i feel like.. I've missed it, a lot. I was catching up on some other blogs and i've come to find out that my favorite thing about reading other blogs is i find answers, or other ways to answer problems that i'm having. I read about people struggling with cancer (always brings tears to my eyes) about a family member passing away, about trials coming there way when they think they don't deserve it. But in the end of it i never hear them "complain" it's always a we have a purpose here and we need to remember. No matter how short or long it is! I'm so blessed in SO many aspects. I don't know why it took so long for me to realize it, but i've come to realize it and i love it. It's the little things in life that matter most! I've learned new things about me, and honestly new things about other people that i would have never thought. I've also learned that "Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference." it's so true, i find myself waking up in the morning not wanting to go to the gym, or not wanting to go to work, or not wanting to do something that could better someones day.. But when i get that attitude of hey, this is something for you, but also for someone else. Do it and be happy. I get a kick in the pants and i'm off. I've never thought about it this way, but when we plan on doing something or going somewhere and something happens that allows us to not make that plan or event, it's for a reason. With that, i feel it's the same with meeting friends. I can tell you i'm content now with just sitting around, hanging out and watching youtube videos, or going to the gym, sitting around talking, just being able to be chill. I don't need to be always going out staying out till way late. I've made a couple of the best friends a girl could ask for. Sidney and Kim are my girls, i love them to pieces! :)

Let's be honest, i've been having those ugly days where you just feel like nothing looks good on your, your hair isn't done right, your make up looks messy and you just look FAT. i've been feeling that more than ever lately and i don't know why. it's the worst feeling in the world.. But as stupid as it may sound, i think that's why Sid's been put in my life, to help me be healthy (she's a gym nut, and i love it) she can motivate you to work hard, and push hard. She's been my lil helper on this little trial i've been going thru. She always knows what to do to make me feel better. I had a break down just before our double date with some boys we knew, i came home and just cried cause i felt like no matter what you could do to me, i'd still look ugly. my amazing mom reassured me that i'm gorgeous, and that she's sorry she doesn't tell me enough. Brought even more tears to my eyes as i walked upstairs to the empty closest she helped me clean out.I got ready and went to the date, still feeling really bummed about the way i looked, i went to sids house and they open the door and both say "freaking me" haha (sids ringtone) they could tell something was wrong so they asked, and i was a little short but with in the night i didn't even remember i was feeling ugly. Even with out words (which is sometimes the best way to say things) they made me feel good. It's been a while since i've had a friend do that for me.

I've been SO SO SO blessed, i just wish i could count all my blessings, and be able to share them. I'm so blessed to have a beautiful family, with parents so strong in the gospel, wonderful friends that i can turn to for anything. A job, that gives me money and pays for the bills. (even thought it might not be my favorite, it's a job. Everyone is suffering) a house, a car, clothes, food, water. etc. we just need to remember that we are so blessed, even though it might not seem like it. There is always something to be thankful for.