The. man. of. my. dreams.

Have I found him? Nope, but when i do he will be perfect.. to ME! I want him to be my best friend, my shoulder to cry on, my first person i think of when something good happens to me. My #1 to call for anything, my handy man, my protector, the father to my children, the one that keeps me going even on my worst days. The one that knows something is wrong when i have the biggest smile on my face, the one that stands up for me when everyone else isn’t. The one i tell all my secrets to, the one that i call my baby, the one that i can just laugh with.. about anything! I just want him to be the man of my dreams. We all have someone different in mind, but i’ll know when i find him. His touch will be all i want, his smile will make me smile, his laugh will make me laugh and his love for what he wants will be mine too. i want him to love my dreams, my goals and my passion. I want to be able to work together and finish together and never give up on what we set out to do. Always be strong for each other cause i know trials will come our way that will be tough if we don’t do it with out each other. He will be my other half, and i can’t wait to find him.

Denver..

Helllllooooo.

I haven't been able to catch you up on everything in my life.. Why you ask? Well I can sum that up in one word. DENVER. One word, too many meanings.

I dont like bugs, but now i do. I sell them. Actually, things to kill them. Pest Control. I breathe, eat, sleep, poop, talk, want, need pest control. That's all my mind knows now. Bad? Not really. Boring? Very. Interesting? More than you'll ever now. Frustrating and exhausting would be my main words that i'd used to describe this though..

Definition. too many people think this is easy. I'd love to pay for anyone to come up here and do what i'm doing. You wake up, go to the gym, go to correlation, go knock doors till 4, have a break till 5, then knock till 9 at night, sometimes even later. Think you do something different? nope, like i said it's been my life for the last month and i want my old life back. Jk, but really. I do.. I love that i've been given this opportunity to come out here and experience this (haven't thought of the right word to use). Is it a blessing, a trial, something to teach me patience, faith, happiness? Still trying to figure that out. There is one thing i know that is a big blessing for me right now and it'd be my girl SJ. aka Sidney Reed.

Ready, me too. Here is the back round of this lovely friendship and this "dumb" idea of thinking Denver would be heaven and easy money. i like money, sometimes a lil too much. so I thought of this idea right. How about we sell in AZ. no, it's hotter than lava there and we said no. Then i thought hmmm, anyways we are at church that next sunday just doing our thing and loving every min of the lessons given. These boys walk in, and i'm like oh i know them cause sidney mentioned how she thought one of the boys was cute. So we ditch R.S for easter candy. ( dont pretend you wouldn't do the same) so we get to talking and we are definitely attrached to these boys and they start to tell us that they are going to be leaving for Denver to go sell some Pest Control. They start to ask us to come with them and sell. We just laugh and laugh.. 3 days later we start packing, quitting our jobs and telling everyone see ya later till the end of August. We are now up here with these boys. Ya, nope i didn't get my man but sidney girl face did and it's adorable :) sometimes.... jk haha

It's been one tough tough tough thing to be going thru. We have had our ups and downs, happy times, sad times, crying times, rough times, best time, bonding times. It's just a lot of time and we need to take this "time" to just realize more than what we are.. Can't wait to be rolling in silly money and a new car! BOOM. ROASTED.

Here is some pickies of our adventures so far.
1. Us after the club
2. Me and Aaron
3. Me and my sid
4. bff's
5. hanging in the car
6. me with chase
7. Sid on a good day










Well that's all for now, but just wait. It'll get better. I'm SO lucky to be able to do this right now. Denver is tough but it's teaching me new things and i'm obviously out here for a reason :)

Blessings

I haven't blogged in a long time i feel like.. I've missed it, a lot. I was catching up on some other blogs and i've come to find out that my favorite thing about reading other blogs is i find answers, or other ways to answer problems that i'm having. I read about people struggling with cancer (always brings tears to my eyes) about a family member passing away, about trials coming there way when they think they don't deserve it. But in the end of it i never hear them "complain" it's always a we have a purpose here and we need to remember. No matter how short or long it is! I'm so blessed in SO many aspects. I don't know why it took so long for me to realize it, but i've come to realize it and i love it. It's the little things in life that matter most! I've learned new things about me, and honestly new things about other people that i would have never thought. I've also learned that "Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference." it's so true, i find myself waking up in the morning not wanting to go to the gym, or not wanting to go to work, or not wanting to do something that could better someones day.. But when i get that attitude of hey, this is something for you, but also for someone else. Do it and be happy. I get a kick in the pants and i'm off. I've never thought about it this way, but when we plan on doing something or going somewhere and something happens that allows us to not make that plan or event, it's for a reason. With that, i feel it's the same with meeting friends. I can tell you i'm content now with just sitting around, hanging out and watching youtube videos, or going to the gym, sitting around talking, just being able to be chill. I don't need to be always going out staying out till way late. I've made a couple of the best friends a girl could ask for. Sidney and Kim are my girls, i love them to pieces! :)

Let's be honest, i've been having those ugly days where you just feel like nothing looks good on your, your hair isn't done right, your make up looks messy and you just look FAT. i've been feeling that more than ever lately and i don't know why. it's the worst feeling in the world.. But as stupid as it may sound, i think that's why Sid's been put in my life, to help me be healthy (she's a gym nut, and i love it) she can motivate you to work hard, and push hard. She's been my lil helper on this little trial i've been going thru. She always knows what to do to make me feel better. I had a break down just before our double date with some boys we knew, i came home and just cried cause i felt like no matter what you could do to me, i'd still look ugly. my amazing mom reassured me that i'm gorgeous, and that she's sorry she doesn't tell me enough. Brought even more tears to my eyes as i walked upstairs to the empty closest she helped me clean out.I got ready and went to the date, still feeling really bummed about the way i looked, i went to sids house and they open the door and both say "freaking me" haha (sids ringtone) they could tell something was wrong so they asked, and i was a little short but with in the night i didn't even remember i was feeling ugly. Even with out words (which is sometimes the best way to say things) they made me feel good. It's been a while since i've had a friend do that for me.

I've been SO SO SO blessed, i just wish i could count all my blessings, and be able to share them. I'm so blessed to have a beautiful family, with parents so strong in the gospel, wonderful friends that i can turn to for anything. A job, that gives me money and pays for the bills. (even thought it might not be my favorite, it's a job. Everyone is suffering) a house, a car, clothes, food, water. etc. we just need to remember that we are so blessed, even though it might not seem like it. There is always something to be thankful for.