Stressed, but very Blessed..

Wow, school! Never thought it would get the best of me but it definitely has. I've never had to be a crazy "studier" to get good grades. I can listen, repeat and be able to remember almost all of it. But with this class that i've been taking, it has shown me differently. Never thought I'd say this, but school, you win.. For now!

Other than school kicking my rump, life has been great. Ups and downs, but life wouldn't be life with out them.

I can say things definitely turn around for everyone, and in the craziest ways. I love the blessings we get from being obedient and doing the small things in life that make up such a big part in other ways. I've learned patients, lots and lots of patients. School, work, Friends, My knee, my family, my dirty room, my laziness. I've have lots to work on.

Christ-like. Big word, small actions. I've been trying so hard lately to be "christ-like" Fill my heart with lots of love, and just give it to everyone. I don't know why it's been so difficult lately, but it's getting better and I am so happy about it!

Lot's of crazy things have been going on and I love it. Take a look :]

These girls are WONDERFUL! :]

(Left to Right)

Krista, Lexa, Michelle, Me, Brenna!

Okay, i know what you're thinking and no it's not..

It's Non- Alcoholic, promise!

Andrew && Mae :]

We're bowling.. Doesn't look like it!

Date Night with Andrew at Makarohnee grill. Yes I know

that I spelled Macaroni wrong! haha

We ended up at sonic, I was suppose to be studying.

Kyron and Metzli. Love them :]

Me, Andrew, Metz, and Kyron!

Me and Metz! I LOVE her. She leaves me to go to Utah.

I am so excited for her and the adventures ahead of her.

Mac, your getting the best Make up woman ever! :]

Allie has always been the best about letting us come over

and hang out at her house. These people are amazing!

Fish, Josh, Me and Thatch! :]

These girls are adorable! i love my friends.

"To be irreplaceable, you must be different."

It's almost 4 in the morning, and I can't sleep. Typical me! I guess I just have a lot on my mind and since it's so late, I don't really have anyone else to talk to and it gets old thinking out loud maybe hoping someone will wake up somewhere and text you "Hey, are you asleep" Always thought that would be crazy. I'm sure they wouldn't want to listen to whats on my mind though. It's like a roller coaster of thoughts. I'm not in love with it. I like to think, but too much silence makes me worry, and when I worry I think, when I think, I get confused. I over think sometimes, not all the time but definitely do sometimes.

Amanda got Baptized. I am SO proud of her! :]

Going quading with this boy is always an adventure.

Thatcher is amazing! :]

I've met some of the greatest people lately

and I love it. Here are some pictures of

everything i've been doing lately!

Getting Bahama Bucks w/some of the Krew!

* Jessica, Kari, Me, Jordan & Taylor at the

midnight showing.

Some of us being crazy at Paiges Birthday Dinner.

I just look stupid. oh well!

I got in a quading accident last week, look who came to

Urgent Care with me? yeah, more pictures to come!

*Story; I was quading with a bunch of friends, 5 minutes

before we are suppose to pack up and get ready to go

back home i might add. I'm sitting at our site waiting

for us to load the quads up. Out of no where comes my

lovely friend Scott going about 30. He was being his

crazy old self and wasn't paying attention like he should

have been doing (which, who really does right?) and he

didn't see me sitting on my quad and he comes and Tbones

me on my left side. I of course go flying off and so does he.

My quad rolls, his rolls on top of me & then i find myself

laying face flat on the ground. Next thing I know 5 seconds

later I have people surrounding me. I have some of the

greatest/most helpful friends. I'm glad they were there to

help me. Kari took me to Urgent Care (along with Thatcher

coming to visit) we had a great time messing around with

all of there equipment. We got to know everyone very

well and had some great laughs & talks. Instead of feeling

pain all I could do was smile and laugh my way thru it.

I'm so lucky and blessed that it wasn't anything worse.

Just waiting... Like always!

Never leave her alone with a glove & a self timer camera.

Me, Kari, and Kari. Yeah, TWO Kari's...

Turned into more of a play date than a visit. haha

As for Scott, Karma hit him the next week long boarding!

just kidddding.

*My life is Incredible*

I had the time today to just have a me day. Want to know how I spent the day? I slept in, got up. and automatically started to clean my room, my bathroom, my closet. I did all my laundry, cleaned out everything. I even did it with me bad knee, I was very impressed. I always feel so much better coming into a clean room. I don't know what it is, but after your tired of spending countless hours cleaning, it's always worth it in the end. I was writing in my journal and I thought of something that I thought was cool. When your dirty, your not living a clean life. It's hard, frustrating, it gets you angry or upset. But once you take the time to really organize and clean yourself up it starts to feel fresh, happy, calm. I take that the same way as we repent. We always feel so much better when we are clean. Random, yes. True? Most definitely.

Me and Jordan :]

Hanging out at the Usual. QT gas stations were dreams

really do come true.

Gorgeous friends! I love them.

No matter what happens in our lives, or how crazy

we might get, or how crazy we might be. You'll always

be the same person to me. My Best. :]

My thinking process!

You might not think I have one of these, but oh boy do I ever. I love to think, that might be weird but it's fun. Sometimes in the end i'm upset that I thought so much about one thing and not so much about the other. But what's been lately on my mind is how Trials come in the forms of blessings. i always think to myself, why should we love our trials? How come my trials might be bigger than someone else's, and why is it happening to me? Lately things have been difficult to me. School is tough, always has been. Friendships have struggled and that's my least favorite out of all of them. But honestly, in the end i'm gaining something better and the only person that makes me feel that way is the Lord. He know's what he is doing with my life, I just need to trust him more on it. Even though I wish I could have what I want now makes me more excited to see what I'll be getting in the long run. Either its something good, or a lesson that needed to be learned.

Well I think it's time for me to get to bed! Hope you had fun stalking :] haha

Impossible..

Always thinking you can't do something, or that maybe that "isn't your cup of tea" well let me tell you, I thought that about a lot of stuff but i've had long, long, amazing talks with people I love dearly and I learn something new every time. We are made to grow, to learn, to progress. We will fall, each and everyone of us. But we have those "bandaids" in our life to help us get threw those scraped up knee's and broken hearts. I know i've had some big bandaids in my life, and some small ones that are exactly what I need at that time. I'm so glad we have those experiences in our lives that make us love what we have that much more. It's been a crazy life so far, and I am loving every day of it. Somethings are tear shedders, and some bring tears cause of the happiness. :] When something isn't going my way, I always think "There is someone else out there that has it way harder than me" It's so true, we are so blessed to have what we do.

I've learned some valuable things in my life. Who to trust, who to love, why we love, what we can do for others, how much a smile does for someone else, and you. How to be happy, how to take the good with the bad. Don't ever put yourself out there for people that wont appreciate it. Cause really, in the end the only one that is going to hurt is you, and that's tough to be in that spot. I've learned that lately. "Realize what's important in your life. What you can live with, but more importantly What you can't live without. Cause once you lose it, it's most likely gone." Don't stop your life for someone that might not be stopping theirs for you. You are so special, important and you need to be treated like that. True friendship is a big thing for someone. It makes your life that much easier when you have someone there that you can tell everything too. Your dreams, your fears, your happiness, maybe things that make you sad. They are there for you. No matter what. They aren't wishy washy about things, they're real. I've made some of the greatest friends lately, that have helped me through hard times. Boy, do I love them!

"I've needed someone like you, i'm just glad I finally found you"

WOW God knows e-x-a-c-t-l-y who we need in our lives, right when we need them! It's incredible his power to know everything about his Children. He never ceases to amaze me. I love him with my whole heart and soul.

I can't wait for this amazing pageant that comes once every year. It's the incredible story of the birth of our Savior, Jesus Christ. It's the Easter Pageant, and that is what I love. Sounds crazy to say, but it's so easy to understand to see what he's done. It's really not even a tenth of what he's done for us, but it shows a little bit of what we are blessed with. Lately i've been thinking and I can't help it but say i love my Savior. I've learned so much from him. Praying to him, worshipping him, learning about him and just having alone time with him. It's incredible, wonderful, stupendous. It's a true Miracle, happening everyday.

I've been thinking A LOT lately. Ever wonder why you get an answer to your prayer that isn't really what you thought it would be? Like, staying home from Idaho and going to school down here? I've always wondered, and still am. I guess I need to find what it is.. Cause right now, i'm a little lost with life. I need to find it! I've just really noticed who i need in my life, and who i can live with out. I mean, everyone will always be in my life. It's just the whole, "who do you need and who can you live with out perspective". It's weird when you do so much for others sometimes, but yet they do nothing for you? Weird how life works that way, but what's funny that's what happened to the Savior. He had a life like ours, but we are nothing like him. And that's what I love. We GET to work to be like him. I think that's an honor to even be able to be like him in some way. The Savior is my Hero :]

This is what's been happening lately!

Country Dancing!

F1 Raceway with the gang :]

Some of the gang getting ready for my party!

Love These people! Game nights.

Just hanging w/my girl Amanda!

Kenz, Rach and Kari's birthday party!

Hanging with the gang!

Triple date w/my girls!

I LOVEEE my life, couldn't be any happier! :]

"There are some days when I think I'm going to die from an overdose of satisfaction and happiness!"

Live, Laugh and Love!

I dont even know where to start, all I can say is DANG! Life has gone by fast, but i'm loving every second of it. Different things have definitely happened. They haven't been easy, but they haven't been hard. I guess it's been more of a challenge. Glad it is, cause thats what I love. Lost friends, made friends, got closer w/friends. Found the little things in life that make me happy, the things that make me sad. Lately i've realized how lucky we are to have what we have. I've got everything a girl could ever want. I know that i'm SO blessed!

Lot's of things have been happening, and it just keeps getting better.

*Dates

*Girls nights

*Game nights

*Dessert night

*Family nights

*Temple time

*Dance parties

*Birthday parties

*BFF time

*Sleeping

*Eating

*Loving

Those are only some of the great things that have been happening lately.

Still crazy as ever, and still love her like crazy :] She's one of the greatest people that has ever come my way. I sometimes think why, or what she's still doing around in my life. But honestly, I can say everything we've gone through has been an amazing time. The good and the bad. I've loved it all. It's been crazy, but nothing we can't handle.

She da best friend, ever!

Decisions have come, and boy its been a blessing!

I've decided to stay here in AZ instead of going back up to BYU-Idaho. It's definitely been a big blessing and lesson in my life. I've really been able to think and see what life really has to offer me. I'm happy with my decision. Somedays i do think why i'm staying here, but everyday there is always something that shows me why I am. It's been emotional to say the least. But i'm so glad that I could get stronger from this experience. I loved and do love Idaho, but right now its just not my thing. I've met so many new friends, boys and girls. I've gotten closer to my Best Friend and my Family. I definitely wouldn't take anything thats happened and trade it for the world, cause it is my world.

Simply, Happy!

We all have something to be happy about, I know I have more than 100 things I can be happy for. I'm so glad im blessed to be able to be here and learn from all my trials that i've been given. Makes me a stronger person, and thats what I love.

Its 2010, I can't believe it! I'm LOVING this new year already. So many new things have happened, new opportunities, friends, jobs, good days, bad days, learning days, chill days. And you know what? I can't complain with a single one of those. Why? Cause they have all taught me something incredible. I couldn't be happier with the days i've had. I just can't wait for the next ones to come!

I wouldn't be as happy as I am with out my friends. I owe them all the biggest Thank you. They are amazing, each and everyone of them. They have all taught me something new that I will take with me forever, I love it!

Love Love Love Them!

I love being around those that are always happy. I know I wouldn't be as happy as I am if I didn't learn how to be happy. I know, that sounds lame. But really if you think about it you have to learn how to be happy. You learn from others. I know that i've learned there is always something to be happy for. You dont need to go change the world, just smile at the world. Sometimes that smile on your face can bring someone else happiness and it just keeps going all around.

Love them for what you see, not what others say!

"The Best Things come in the smallest packages."

I always think the big things in life are what matters most, but if you think about it. We all contain one of the smallest things that carries the most love. What is it? its our Heart. I bet we don't think about it a lot, but our heart works the hardest. Between the brain and the heart you have to think which one is used more. We use the brain to think, but we use the heart to act. Or wait, is it the other way around?.. I think we use them to the same extent. We are given the brain to judge others, to see what we want to see. But thats when we need and want the heart to tell us otherwise. We need to let our heart go out to others. Help, want, need to be a part of someones life. That's really how we grow. When having love in our hearts and mind it really makes for a better you. We have our first impressions, and let me tell you. Mine are not always the best, they are usually weird. But what you see is what you get. When you meet a person you have to really stop and look for the inside instead of the outside. Just like a book. "You can't judge a book by its cover" Maybe you'll realize its the best darn thing you picked up. I know that half the people in my life wouldn't be in it if I didn't look at what they had to offer in the inside. The heart gives so much more than you can ever imagine. You just have to open up and let people in. I learned that from my best friend. (by the way) story time: I met my best friend kinda in a weird way. She dated a close friend of mine, brother. She wasn't always the coolest thing in my book and I definitely wasn't the nicest to her. But then when i went to party on new years we bumped into each other and i was a little afraid she would remember how mean we "kinda" where to her. But she didn't. She was so tender towards me and it really showed that we get 2nd chances. We exchanged numbers (sounds weird.) and then from then on just hung out a lot and now we pretty much do everything together. She has my heart! hahahahahahah but really. ;) I've got the best things that make up my heart. I have my family, the gospel, my friends, an education, hard times, good times, prayer, faith, love, hope. There is so many, but those are just some that I could think of. I wish i was a little cooler with this blog but i just like to randomly ramble and write. It's fun :) im so thankful for the small things in life we don't take enough time to just stop and really appreciate it. A flower that's bloomed, a penny on the floor(kari) a smile, a good hair day. Our hearts HUGE. Let it get all the love it needs so it can give it right back! :]

I have an obsession with people that do "what they love" because if you can find a handful of people that really do "what they love" this life would be complete. I know I feed off what other people do and im not always doing what I love. Ya, we have to take those times where we just have to suck it up and be happy. but maybe seeing that one person happy is what you love. So if that makes sense, we are doing what we love. Just not always in the way we want. I am totally rambling, its awesome. This is why i love the blog.

I LOVE everyone is this world. Ya, i don't know them but man they bring something to this world that someone else couldn't. I love the fact of knowing we each have that one thing thats different about us. That "special" thing no one else has. The laugh, smile, dimple, freckle, hair color, attitude, talent, abilities, generosity. We are all blessed with a different talent or definition that defines us. No one is the same description.

TENDER... is MY word.